Thoughts on Spiritual Experiences

Most of you who are reading this, would have had at least one spiritual experience in your lifetime. But for those of you who havn’t had one, I feel promted to talk about it.  Spirituality is a reality,  for human beings.  Science is beginning to catch up to knowledge that many philosophers and spiritual masters have long known for a long, long time, and  it is just now that science has the technology to prove it.  So I think it would be safe to say that there are many atheistic scientist out there,  having spiritual experinces right now and they are not even awear of it.

Spiritual energy is a very subtle vibration, it is the energy in the space between atoms and nucleases and protons.  It is the most potent of all the energy in the Universe, yet it is the least visible to the human eye.  However, it is also very, very percievable to the human animal.  I call us animals here, because at our most primative level, we are hard wired to see, hear and feel spiritual energy.  We get instincts, we get bristles on the backs of our necks, we just know something and have to act.  This is all a transference of spiritual energy.

Quantum physics is now beginning to understand this and of course many of you would have seen the DVD seriese that started with ‘What the Bleep Do We Know’ which came out around the same time as ‘The Secret’.

So spiritual energy is easily transfered to us and within us, but how do we know it?  Well as you know, we are the ghost that drives the machine.  We are a spiritual being in a physical body.  The scientists can measure the activity of the brain. But they cannot find the mind. Yet it exists.  It exists within a body, within a body, within a body, within a body.   Homeopathy teaches us that we have four bodies, the physical body, the emotional body, the mental body and the spiritual body.  The mind is held in part, within each of these bodies.

So, back to a spiritual experience.  The most obvious to talk about would be the sighting of a ghost.  How many of you have seen one?  It’s a chilling thing.  We normally expect to see people in physical, not energetic form!

Parapsychology famously discribes being in the presence of a ghost as feeling a cold chill in the air.  And sometimes that is the case, but I have found not always.  Ghosts don’t care about the temperature. They want is energy. They are hungry for it.   When you see one, you may see a cloud of white or dark energy, or you may see a blob or an orb of differnt coloured energy.  Some orbs are good, some are not.  You may see an apparition or a see through person, (like a film negative), or you may not see anything at all.  Sometimes, you will feel someone looking at you, or one time I was at a friend’s place and suddenly I felt a male energy lean across the table and breath a gahstly breath in my face.   Another time, I just heard a loud and clear physical voice.    Ghosts are more often seen, heard or in my case smelt, because there are lots of them hanging around.  This kind of spiritual experince, is often what sends someone looking for more answers.

When you see your guide or an angelic being, however, you may feel frightened at first, but you very quickly beign to feel exhilarated.  They will uplift you and fill you with wonder.

I set out writting this comment with the intentions of dicribing a spiritual experince and as I’ve writen it, I’ve realised that having a spiritual experience is like tasting chocolate.  Another person can tell you it tastes nice, but they cannot discribe to you, how it will taste for you, only you can experience that.  Food science  can  prove the differnt scented notes in the chocolate, but the flavour and smell can not be tranfered into your mouth via words. So too, you must experience a spiritual encounter for yourself, in order for you to gain a full understanding.

Spiritual experinces are varied from scarey and horrid to exhillarating and amazing.  Your own life philosophy will dictate to you how you deal with it.   Odds on, in this day and age, you will have a spiritual experince or you will generate spiritual energy via meditation or thought transference. Remember to keep the knowledge,  that as the alive one,  you are in control, you have the power. Spirituality is not to be messed with.  So chose to move within the spiritual realm wisely.

Much Love

Cat Edwards


A Definition of Beauty

Today, I want to do something a little different.   I want to bring someone else into the Spiritual Comment.  I am not the only spiritual teacher out there and I certainly don’t say I am the most learned.  One of my favourite spiritual teachers is the late Khalil Gibran and I wanted to share with  you a passage from his book ‘The Prophet Collection’.  If you are not familiar with this book, it is the story of a prophet who is preparing to leave the town of Orphalese.  Now this town will be mentioned in the extract, so just be aware of this.

But first –

In today’s society, we are bombarded with images of perceived perfect beauty. Just yesterday, I saw a news story about a Lass in the UK who has won a competition for having the most scientifically  measured beauty in Great Britain.

So I got to thinking, what is beauty and why is it that some people can look beautiful on the outside and yet when they speak, they become ugly, while others do not possess obvious good looks, yet when they speak, they light up the room with beauty.

I think Khalil Gibran sums it up beautifully in this extract….

“And a poet said, ‘Speak to us of Beauty.’

And he answered:

‘Where shall you seek beauty, and how shall you find her unless she herself be your way and your guide?

And how shall you speak of her except she be the weaver of your speech?

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The aggrieved and the injured say, ‘Beauty is kind and gentle.  Like a young mother, half-shy of her own glory, she walks among us.’

And the passionate say, ‘Nay, beauty is a thing of might and dread.  Like the tempest she shakes the Earth beneath us and the sky above us’

The tired and the weary say, ‘Beauty is of soft whisperings. She speaks in our spirit.  Her voice yields to our silences like a faint light that quivers in fear of the shadow.’

But the restless say, ‘We have heard her shouting among the mountains, and with her cries came the sound of hoofs and the beating of wings and the roaring of lions.’

At night the watchmen of the city say, ‘Beauty shall rise with the dawn from the East.’

And at noontide the toilers and the wayfarers say, ‘We have seen her leaning over the Earth from the windows of the sunset.’

In winter say the snow-bound, ‘She shall come with the spring leaping upon the hills.’

And in the summer heat the reapers say, ‘We have seen her dancing with the autumn leaves, and we saw a drift of snow in her hair’

All these things have you said of beauty,

Yet in truth you spoke not of her, but of needs unsatisfied.

And beauty is not a need, but and ecstasy.  It is not a mouth thirsting nor an empty hand stretching forth,

But rather a heart inflamed and a soul enchanted.  It is not the image you would see nor the song you would hear,

But rather an image you see though you close your eyes and a song you hear though you shut your ears.

It is not the sap within the furrowed bark, nor a wing attached to a claw,

But rather a garden forever in bloom and a flock of angels for ever in flight.

People of Orphalese, beauty is life, when life unveils her holy face.

But YOU are LIFE and YOU are the VEIL.

Beauty is eternity gazing at itself in a mirror.

But YOU are ETERNITY and YOU are the MIRROR.



Lets talk about your state of mind.  You know that when your state of mind is positive the world looks brighter and when it is negative, the world looks dull and you too will look dull to others.  In fact if you continuously have a negative state of mind, you will actually age faster than your peers and etch lines on your face to add to the effect.

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State of mind is such a powerful thing.  I was at a life coaching seminar one year and they were teaching us about state of mind, they just called it ‘state’.  They fired us all up and got us pumped with high energy music and dancing and a feel good atmosphere and then they produced a 3cm thick board and they told us to hit the board and break it in half.  Now I’d only ever seen this done by black belt karate dudes on TV, so I certainly didn’t think someone like me could smash a board, but you know, in that state of mind, I put my fist through it like it was just a flimsy piece of plastic.  Then they pulled out an arrow and held it to the little dint in our throat, you know the vulnerable windpipe spot?  We got mega pumped and they told us to walk our bodies into the arrow and break it.  It took me a few goes, because the fact was it intimidated me to do this insane thing. But I just went to the back of the line and jumped around like a little kid and got even more fired up and then I found myself in this mind set where I could actually see flames in my inner eye. In that state of mind I just walked through the arrow and snapped it – falling onto the poor lady holding it up!  Then I went off, jumping around like a jack in the box even more because I did it!

That seminar taught me that I could do whatever I had to,  to get the job done.  It told me to focus and create a headspace that was for winning and then go for whatever I wanted because I can.  I have to say, I was on an absolute high for a week after that weekend, I loved it.  If you can get yourself to a life coaching seminar, I fully recommend it.

But we aren’t talking about seminars here; we are talking about state of mind.  I’ve met quite a few people of late who are stuck in a victim mentality.  You know it, we’ve all been there, the poor me, everyone hurts me, I’m always last, I can’t love myself, I don’t know how.  Everything bad always happens to me, I am not worth it, I have nothing to show for my life, I hate my job, everyone at work hates me…yada yada yada…yep, it’s a toxic combination and it can be addictive.  Silly how things that make you feel really bad, can be addictive, hey?  At first, you are genuinely the victim, you’ve been hurt by someone significant or been in a situation of trauma, but it never really resolves itself and you spiral into a mud puddle in your mind.

The body, as we all know is made up of 70% water and as we all know water holds emotions.  Well those emotions poison that water in your body, if they vibrate at the energy of unhappy for too long.  Especially if your mind is cut off from your feelings and the emotions are stored inside, without the flow of tears to release those emotions and feelings, your appearance will prune up.  Soon you’ll be 40 looking 50!  Don’t do it to yourself, people who genuinely care, will find it hard to be around you.  It’s not good.  Counselling and working through it are the best ways.  For me, I found doing martial arts forced me to hit some major emotional barriers.  Because when I had to do kata’s in sequence with others, it transported my mind back to when I was 13 and all the kids were laughing at me in Physical education class because I couldn’t do a task.  I hadn’t even thought about it, all these years, until that moment when I suddenly felt the emotions wrap me up and squeeze the tears out.  I had to go to the loos, so embarrassing.  But it’s better out than in.  You know?

How are you feeling?  Is there some issue that is affecting your state of mind?  It’s a process of peeling the emotional onion to get the core of those emotions and set yourself free.  I think that at that point, you will feel the freedom of enlightenment, because in my mind, enlightenment is when you no longer have emotional attachments to negative experiences or people and therefore, you no longer have a vulnerability to  negative state of mind.

State of mind can be changed with determination, just by putting on a funny movie, or getting in some exercise, playing with a loving animal or doing something creative.  You are never going to change your state of mind, by doing a task that is ho hum and boring like the laundry, unless you love laundry that is, believe it or not I have met people who love to wash clothes!

Be aware of your state of mind.  Be aware of the things you say about yourself and to others.  Catch yourself saying negatives about yourself or about life.  Write down what those catch phrases are, it may be a phrase like…’it makes me feel angry when’, or ‘I can’t’, or ’ I don’t’ think I can’, or ‘I never get what I want’… whatever the catch phrase is, it’s time to name and shame that little sucker, because it’s sucking the life right out of you.

People, who live in a positive state of mind, sometimes have to work hard to stay up there.  No one said being positive all the time is easy and if we were all bouncing around like I was at the seminar, well we’d all be locked up in the insanity ward.  But it is easy to make it a conscious habit of saying to yourself, I am worthy.  I am happy, I am good enough, I am kind, I am a person who has a purpose and a reason for living.  I am loved.

Say it to yourself until you believe it and it becomes a habit to say these positives about you and your life. Then and only then, will you come to the realisation that you have achieved a new, happier state of mind.


Body Image, Relationships &Gratitude

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Sometimes I think people put too much pressure on themselves to be of a so called perfect body shape in order to attract a partner.   Those people that I have known who buy into having to be super slim to get a man or a woman to fancy  them, tend to end up with people who are superficial and who only want to see that outer beauty and not the real beauty of a person, the beauty within.  ‘Time stops for no man’ they say and this is so true in regards to the shape of your body.  Bodies change; bodies grow and evolve as we grow older.  They never stay static and believe me, you won’t look the same way you did a 25 when you are 50, so why stress so much about body image, just to land a partner?  In fact, in regards to women and their idea of body image, I haven’t met one man yet who doesn’t think curves rock!  They love them.  It’s only the fashion designers who despise curves.  They need to sell clothing and so they keep the clothes small.  Here in Australia, the average size of a woman is size 12.  That equates to size 8 in the USA and a size 10 in the UK.   This is a healthy weight, a weight range to be happy with and in doing so, you will find that everything changes for you.

When I met my partner, I had put on a little weight because I had gone through a major period in my life full of struggle and hardship and I had become burnt out and depressed.  So I wasn’t exercising as much and food became a comfort for me.  I was a size 14 in Aussie clothing and he still fancied me.  He still liked what he saw and he still wanted to get to know me.  In fact, now I am a little chubbier, because that time of being burnt out made me sedentary and then I ended up with some health issues and I couldn’t get back to the gym.  Guess what?  He’s still here.  With my pot belly and flabby arms, he’s still hanging around.

It’s because he is able to see beyond my imperfections and he realises that I am motivated to change when the time is right and really, if I didn’t care and I was happy with the way I am he’d be happy too.  He just isn’t worried so much, because he thinks curves rock.  He’s not super slim, either.  But I don’t care because when I look at him, I see a beautiful person and I like him just the way he is.

True love transcends all the superficial stuff.  True love doesn’t care that you’ve just had a baby and your belly is a bit floppy and your boobs are huge.  True love doesn’t mind that you have chubby thighs or that your nose has a hook in it.  True love only sees the heart and the heart, personality  compatibility and communication are what make a relationship tick.

I spent many years in my adult life alone, without a partner.  Many of these years were by choice I must admit, because I didn’t want to find I’d made a bad choice and regret entangling my life with someone who was wrong for me.  So when I did meet someone, it meant that I had the perspective of knowing that I have been alone and I like not being alone now.  It means that I never take him for granted.

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Too many relationships end up in a rut where each person is going through the motions of the day and they forget to stop and remember why they are with that person and why it is wonderful to have them around.  We get caught up in the rat race too easily and this can take over the joy of the little things.  If you are in a relationship, try and remember to stop and be grateful for the one you are with every day and if you can, let your heart be filled with gratitude that they have chosen to stick around and be with you.  This choice of gratitude will make up some of the glue that keeps you together.  I think it’s also important to put yourself in the other person’s shoes once in a while and to reiterate to them what you have observed.  So that they know that you are thinking of them and that you appreciate their efforts.  This is also important in keeping the relationship glued together.

In doing these things, in loving the body your partner occupies and in loving your own, in accepting the imperfections of each other and in allowing yourself to stop and feel the gratitude for the life you have together, you will not overload your love with demands.  Because love soars when it is not overloaded with demands.  How can a bird fly if it is covered in oil?  Its feathers are overloaded and it cannot take off.  Love cannot fly either if you demand it to be skinny or to earn more money or be more sociable or whatever the issue may be.  If you were to back off from what is annoying and encourage what is wonderful, your love will grow to heights you could never expect or even dream of.

For those of you who are reading this and you are single.  Do not worry, your time will come.  There are billions of people in this world and therefore billions of possibilities for love.  Just remember that you are at your most attractive when you are happy with yourself.  When you have no pressure on yourself to be a certain way.  Just allow yourself to be free.  Of course if your Dr says lose weight, you should do so, but this may be the key to you feeling that freedom.  But if you are chasing perfection, let it go and just love yourself in this moment, for the reasons that brought you here and make the choices to live within that sense of freedom, to find yourself and find the love you deserve, within yourself,  for who you are.  Then, when the time is right, your one true love, may just meet you and a new life together can begin.

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When you are with The One, that togetherness is easy.  There is no regular tears or fighting, there is no regular dramas or hassles.  There is just the ebb and flow of life and all that entails.  It is a wonderful and fulfilling experience to be with another person who is your best friend, your lover and your confident.  If you have that, never take it for granted, don’t’ place pressure on it and never hold on too tight for fear of losing it either.  Just love it with all your heart and soul.  True love is awesome and I wish for each and every one of you the opportunity to experience it.




Some Life Force for ya!

This past week (Feb 01 2012-Feb 07 2012) I have been recovering from an operation and I as the week progressed I began to feel the life drain out of my body.  This Operation removed an infection that was pressing on my brain and was threatening to cause meningitis.  It was a very unpleasant operation.  By the 3rd day after I’d come home, I couldn’t hold myself up, I needed to use the walls and others to help me walk.  I was so weak I felt no interest in food or entertainment. My body had begun to shut down and go into healing crisis mode.  I had no choice but to stay in bed.  However, my mind was not so interested in being sick.  I continued to focus on the prise…health.

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To me it was this bright golden orb in my minds eye and it beconed me closer every day.  With this attitude I began to fight the good fight and by Saturday morning I was interested in food.  My partner made me some of my favourite food and I munched on it over several hours.  By Saturday night, I was only leaning on walls occassionaly and I was back, yelling at my kids to get to bed.  I felt a surge of energy fill my body and I became acutely  awear of my own Life Force.  It is an amazing feeling to be so drained and then to be so full of vigour.  I can only describe it as my body filling itself with that light I had kept in my mind.  Like the light I saw was the life force energy I was looking at the entire time.

Life force is the energy that drives all the functions of the Universe.  When it becomes extinct in an animal or plant, it never ceases to exist, it only takes a new shape or form.  It is an energy that likes to stick around, it doesn’t want to leave it’s host.  It is fuled by love and driven by the desire to grow and learn and evolve.  It is an all consuming cloud of energy that has spread to the far and wide reaches of the Universe and it exists with in you and I.  I think this is the God head or the God image that many religious and spiritual teachers have seen within us and have captured this ideal as in, that we are made in the image of their holy diety.  We are, because we are all charged with life force and it is in everything and it is all that is and therefore it’s any deity you like to love aswell.

Life force is proven by science and known to be real and true by spiritualists and religious believers and loved by every living thing that is held in the grip of survival.  It is truley the most precious gift we could ever have.  I am on a mission to nurture mine back to full steam.  How about we all find a way to bring our life force up to full power today?


About Meditation…

Lately when I think about what to talk to you about I get one word inspirations, today is meditation.  Now I don’t profess to be the world expert on this subject.  For me, meditation had  been a struggle in the past and not for only the usual reasons, like trying to quieten the mind.  When I was younger, if I meditated, I would just blaze open my mind to more of my gifts and I would not be able to gain control of them again for a while.  I learnt to meditate at a Yogi Ashram and through meditation classes run by a Buddhist Monk.  I was learning to meditate, yes, but I wasn’t learning to control my gifts or to psychically protect myself.  Back in the mid Nineties in Brisbane, being spiritual was still very much a religious thing and to say you saw ghosts or that you had spiritual experiences was really frowned on.  So I didn’t feel I could talk to any of these people about my knowledge.  I felt quite alone.

Meditation was something I practised occasionally until I got a handle of my gifts.  I would experience psychic attack from ghosts after meditation, often. So it scared me.
But, I think, if I had been given instruction on how to handle my gifts and how to protect myself, I would have meditated everyday throughout my adult life.  It is for this reason, that I urge you to use psychic protection as part of your pre-meditation ritual.  Get yourself in a comfortable position, maybe light a candle, burn some oils and put on some peaceful music.  Then, close your eyes and visualise yourself being psychically protected.  Then go into your meditation.

Many people teach this, but many don’t aswell.  So I expect this is why I am being urged to talk to you about it today, as a reminder.

Meditation is the gateway to your spiritual gifts.  It opens you up to those gifts that lay dormant and it helps you to fine tune the ones you are working with already.  It gives you the space to take a moment and breathe correctly.  It gives the body a much needed rest and if you can, it will help you to still your mind.  This is the key to being able to use your psychic abilities.  I expect that if you asked every professional psychic out there, if they had a still mind when they received a channelled message, they would agree.  It is very hard to receive it any other way.  Maybe this ability to have a still mind is what makes them gifted in comparison to others, or maybe it enhances their gifts…I don’t know, that is an individual thing, but I do know that for me, meditation before I do any creative or spiritual work allows me to put aside the worries of the day and to clear my mind so it looks like a blank page.  Then I can fill it up with whatever creative or spiritual endeavour I may be pursuing at the time.

Meditation doesn’t have to a seated or rested experience either.  I have spoken to you in the past about movement meditation, where you allow your body to move itself and this then rests the mind.  This can actually be very enchanting and powerful; dance is another form of mediation, along with chanting a mantra.  I often meditate when I’m doing mundane tasks.  I sort of put my body on auto-pilot and, wash the dishes, for example, while my mind ponders or contemplates.  This is a very simple way to meditate that anyone can do.

If you find it hard to still your mind when you are meditating, then try some of these other techniques.  It is very simple.  Just remember to visualise yourself being psychically protected and of course, go with what feels right for you.

Meditation is a good daily habit to get into, think about how you can incorporate it into your daily life.


Self Love

When you were a child at primary school, did the other kids ever taunt you and tell you that you ‘love yourself’?  Like that meant you were supposed to be full of yourself and your ego would explode on the walls?  I remember kids saying that to each other all the time.

I remember getting sucked into it and telling other kids this mean thing aswell.  It was seen as wrong to love yourself, because they didn’t understand there is a difference between being full of your own self worth and having self love.

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self love

These days, I can proudly say that yes, I do love myself.  But I am not very good at keeping an inflated ego, (I just wouldn’t fit through the door frames) so I keep my self love to myself .  It shows to others in the way I act and present myself both in person and online.  It’s easy and when I think back to those times when I found that I felt I had to reject myself for whatever reasons, I remember that I was always so very stressed out.  Self rejection takes allot of work.   I think it does, you know.  I think rejecting yourself is a full time job that can consume your mind and can harden your heart to the softer, more colourful experiences life has to offer.  I am not perfect, I am still hard on myself and I still feel down about myself sometimes.  But there is always something I can think about that makes me feel happy about me again and something I can focus on that gives me a sense of self worth.

When I was 17, I attempted to commit suicide.  I couldn’t see that I was loved and that anyone cared.  I felt that there was no point anymore and that I was ugly.  I had begun to drink and smoke too much and I was an occasional drug user.  I found that when I was sober, I couldn’t string two words together, I had lost my confidence to speak.  I began to seep away from the world in to the black cave in the very back of my mind and there, I hid and hoped that someone would find me.  But all that found me was more pain and it was allot of hard work to stay there.  I had to believe I deserved to be there, I had to convince myself that no one wanted me in the light, I had to convince myself that I was invisible.

This state of mind led me to taking some sleeping pills.  I slept all day and in the afternoon, I was disappointed that I awoke to the sound of a knock on my door.  It was a friend of mine, who had been suffering from terrible regular migraines.  She was also in the play at the local theatre that I was in and she came to pick me up to go to a theatre troop party.  I knew she held me in high esteem, I had laid my hands on her several times and literally drawn the pain energy out of her body, I would then go and hug a tree and transfer it into the trees at the front of her house…her trees grew very green!  When I had drawn enough of the pain energy out of her body, she would relax and sleep, wake up pain free.  I knew all this was between us, but I was selfish enough to think that my little dark cave was the best place for me.


Self Love Hands
Self Love Hands

I didn’t tell her what I had tried to do.  I went with her to the party and watched and listened as all the other theatre members grew excited about Opening night the following week.  I was a key member of the cast.  Not the lead, but a key member, just the same.  Had I taken too many of those sleeping pills, I would have finished the play and hurt all those people.

Later that night, we all went out to a night club, we lived in the outback town of Mt Isa, so everybody knew everybody…I was greeted by all these friendly acquaintances.  People who wanted to know how I was and what I was doing.  If my plan to take my life had come through, I would have hurt them too, because from a distance, my life mattered to them.

Even though all this information was passing into my brain, it wasn’t registering as I say it to you now.  What did register was that, I wasn’t actually serious about taking my life, and I wasn’t meant to die that day.  I was mean to live.  So I chose to live.  I chose to find a way out of that cave and into the light again.  It took me years and years.  I began to take notice of the things I said about myself, to myself and to others.  I began to look for why I was sad and to find a way to change it.  I began to see that I was worthy of love and that I was a worthy person to live and to breathe.  I began to realise I could achieve and that all along I had been making achievements.

Waves of Self Love
Waves of Self Love

My self love is not built on my own self importance.  I’m a mother, that is kind of put to one side in favour of the importance of my family.  My self love is based on my ability to see myself as a worthy person.  As a person who can and does achieve and contribute to the world, even if it is in a very small way.

It has been hard to see this for many reasons, but one big one has been that, because I was feeling so low, I was prey for the predator called narcissist.  These predators come in the disguise of friend, or lover, they can be a boss or a co-worker.  They are not very self loving actually, because they want to make someone else miserable to make themselves feel better…thus they lack self love.  But they can be very manipulative and controlling. Very charming in the beginning and very much make themselves out to be the teacher or the mentor you the sad one, is seeking.   When you have low self-esteem, you are an easy target for the likes of these predators.

If you are someone with low self-esteem and felling sad and lost.  Be aware that you are leaving yourself open to the narcissists of the world to prey on you and keep you down.

Better to begin a plan to bring yourself out of the conundrum of lacking self love and back into the light.  Better to find each day 10 min to tell yourself you are a good person and to take that time to see what you have achieved that day.  Better to feel good about that small achievement and build on that for the next day and so on until most of your private thoughts are filled with positive messages.  Then you will not be touched by the likes of a narcissist, because they cannot find a way to hook in a happy person.  A happy person is not vulnerable to the lies and the manipulations of a narcissist.  A happy person is free.

Self love is a choice and it is your birth right.  It is a natural gift each of us has to ourselves and to the rest of the world.  If we don’t practise self love more and more, we will never find our way into the light.  Imagine the world of Humans if we were all self loving creatures.  We would radiate so much love for ourselves and each other, that we would be truly sentient and peaceful.  There would never be any need for war again.

Do yourself a favour today, tell yourself ‘I love you’ and mean it.


Occasional Self Doubt.

So how are you coping with life just now?  How’s your personal journey travelling?  There is so much change and uncertainty around, it is not a wonder that the running theme with my clients this week has been that of self doubt.  I am not immune to this internal menace.  Self doubt can be crippling and if you let it, it can overrule your life and prevent you from moving forward and taking opportunities.

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I went through a period of about a year and half of self doubt around 4 years ago.  I had been successful in my work, I was growing my reputation as a Funeral Celebrant and I had people flying interstate just to have a Reading with me.  Everything was going smoothly, or so I thought.  There were issues in my life around my nuclear family which were beginning to take their toll and were unable, at the time to be resolved.  Because of this, my mind-set was a little crumpled and more and more as I stepped out into he outside world, I was feeling beaten down by the competitive nature of others in my industry.  I began to feel I wasn’t as good as them, I began to think that my abilities were not as powerful and not as accurate.  I couldn’t take the cattiness of women and the mind games of co-workers.  Normally, I’d just ignore this kind of behaviour and rise above it, or just don’t get involved, but during this time, I let myself get affected by it.

Self doubt had begun to win.  I stopped working as a professional clairvoyant, I took less and less funeral jobs and I began to hide from the world.  I was afraid that I wasn’t good enough and that my abilities were not all I’d thought they were.

This went on for a good 18 months.  Until one day, a woman rang me in a state of confusion and grief.  She asked if I could counsel her and help her to get her head around her life.  I felt badly for this person and I agreed.  However, that day, I also received another phone call.  This one was from a Dr, to tell me the results of some tests.  I was told that one of my children had a special need.  I now had to get my head around both of my children having been diagnosed with a disability.  My emotional state, was a heavy low.  I needed some time out and my Mother came and took me for a coffee.  The woman I’d agreed to help rang me several times.  She wanted to see me earlier, she was a mess.    Eventually, I picked myself up and took myself home.

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I greeted my client and sat down with her, I drew a map of her life and we discussed what was out of balance and what was in need of some more attention.  I gave her a plan and I made her a cup of tea and I let her talk.  In the end I told her why I hadn’t answered my phone and she was humbled.  She hadn’t considered that I would have had my own issues to deal with that day, and that was ok.

From that time on, more people began to ring me and seek out my expertise.  I didn’t advertise and I hadn’t told many people what I did.  They were recommended to me or my card mysteriously jumped out of their bookshelf. I’d get phone calls from people who’d seen me at a big festival 6 months before and they wanted to thank me for the advice I’d given them.  I was being propped up, by my Guides.  My guides were showing me that my abilities were real and that I was good enough.

My Guides and the people who I’d Read for in the past, were slowly showing me, it was all going to be ok and that it was just fine for me to believe in myself.  They were showing me that they needed me to believe in myself again.  They were showing me that if I did believe in myself I could be successful at what I do.  So, after a while, I did.  I chose to let go of the faces in my mind whose eyes were piercing at me, telling me I wasn’t as good as them.  I realised that more than likely I was a threat to them and that is why they treated me so.  I let go of the words “I’m not good enough’ and I replaced them with the words ‘I am good enough’ and ‘I can do it’.

I started to allow myself to feel good about whom I am and to embrace my life once and for all.  I think this was the key to the big change.  I really just said ‘stuff it, stuff all the attitudes that I’ve encountered.  They don’t represent me.  They are not who I am.  I am me and I deserve my place in life.’

So I over came that period of self doubt and I began to grow in my strength.

I still sometimes hear words of self doubt in my mind.  But when that happens, I choose to remind myself of all the achievements I’ve made.  I think of all the good things I have going and all the blessings I have.

There is always going to be someone better than you and someone lesser than you.  But you are also that someone who is better than another and lesser than another.  That is why we are here to teach each other.  Life would be boring if we were all growing at the same speed.

Lady in the garden.
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Self doubt is a dark pace to dwell.  If you are feeling low and your mind is filled with the lies that self-doubt speaks, turn it around by stepping out into the garden and looking at the things you know are real.  The grass under foot, the sky above.  The bird in a tree.  Then remind yourself of the things you know are real and good about you.  Your achievements, your good heart and your blessings.  Each time self doubt creeps back, choose to prove it wrong by learning more and being more and living more.  Don’t let it win.  You will find the cold dark cave of self doubt is no place for a beautiful kind soul like yourself.


Head Space and Environment

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I am in the middle of a big Spring Clean at the moment and it prompted me to ask the question of you…how is your environment?  We worry about the environmental impacts of roads and mining and of industry on the Worlds flora and fauna, but we must also remember to think about our own home environments, too.  A wise man once said to me that your environment is a direct reflection of your head space.  So if your head space is all cluttered, chances are that your environment is too.

Like many Mums, I work from home.  It is difficult when your house is not quite big enough and there isn’t enough storage.  My office has soon become the dumping ground for paper work and computer cables, old shoes and things I just cannot describe.  So today, I got three big boxes out of my garage and I piled all this… stuff… into them and put it all out of my office.  Now I can think again.

I just cannot conduct business in a work space that is messy.  It feels like I have spiders webs in my hair, or I’m wearing a dirty old coat…you know the feeling?

Your environment is so important to your state of mental health too.  As we get to know each other, you will find that I will be talking more and more about mental health, because I think it is such an important part of a Human’s over all wellbeing and a topic that has been really abused and misconstrued for too long by so many.

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If you are feeling low and have been suffering from say, anxiety, or depression, or another mental health issue…try the simple act of having a big clean out.  Get a garbage bag and throw out all the things you think are just rubbish.  Get a box and place in it, all the things you don’t need and you are happy to donate, and store away all the things that you can use, but you don’t need to have laying about.  This may take a long time.  I took a whole year, once.  I went through all my things and I made a massive pile of rubbish outside in my car port.  Then, one weekend, I hired a Skip/bin and my kids and I piled it all in there.  The man came along and took it all to the dump and I felt like I had whittled my life down to the bare essentials.  It was liberating!

It’s amazing, though, just how much stuff you can accumulate over a few short years.  Because, here I am almost three years later, with a big clean up necessary and this time I’m in a different house, so I don’t have a car port I can store it in, till I’m ready.  I do have a station wagon though, so I’m doing my dump trips and I’m feeling more and more awake and inspired, with each trip.

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When two people move in together, inevitably, you will find there is way more gear in the house than there ever was before.  That is what has happened for me.  I think it’s important to recognise that some things that you may think are junk, are important to the other person.  So, there needs to be negotiation and there needs to be re-organisation of storage areas.

My mission statement is to Honour Life and to Encourage Success.  That starts with my home environment first, then my work environment and then my car environment and then I can reach that statement out into the rest of the world.

What is your mission statement?  Does it align up with your home and work environment?  Now just may be the time to get stuck in and do something about it, before your family descends upon you at Christmas time and you are left red faced with a big mess that you just cannot hide.




I had a dream last night, that involved someone who’s actions 15 years ago, have had negative repercussions on me and my family ever since.  This dream has been playing on my mind all day, because it involved me working on the process of forgiveness.

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Forgiveness is an easy thing to say and a not so easy thing to do.  In fact, a lot of people I’ve met feel it’s easier not to forgive and to feel that perpetual hurt.  I know of many people who hold a grudge and seek revenge.  But never have I heard of someone feeling that warm silence of inner peace because of their inability to forgive.

I chose to start the process of forgiving others a long time ago.  I’m no saint, I’m sure there are people who need to forgive me too.  We all make mistakes in life.  But if you are a good person and you can’t sleep at night, because of issues of forgiving others, you need to get on top of it.

Being angry at another person only affects their lives if you lash out.  They will energetically feel it if you don’t lash out, yes.  But more often than not, they will continue to go about their days not even thinking about you and what has peeved you off.  So, holding onto anger is toxic to you first and foremost, then it is toxic to those close to you and then to the people you deal with in daily life and finally to the person you have an issue with.  How can you succeed in life, if you are putting out all this anger to the world?  With a great deal of persistence and heartache, I expect.   There has to be an easier way…and yes, that way is forgiveness….but how do you forgive?

I have some examples for you.  One I’ve succeeded with, one I’m working on and one I’d love to see put into action.  So, we’ll start with the one that worked for me.

When I was a little girl, I was taken away from all the family I knew and loved and moved to another country.  There was grownups making all the decisions and creating all the changes.  All my life, until I was 32, I felt hurt by this action.  Even when I wasn’t consciously thinking about it, the little girl inside of me was crying.  It manifested in chest pain, which was very frightening.  When I was 32, I went back to Scotland, the land of my birth and I spoke with one of the people who were involved in that fateful scenario.  I wanted to know why.  I wanted to know their version of events and I wanted them to take their share of personal responsibility for those actions.  Then I spoke with some other key players who were watching from the side lines.  I eased my mind about how they saw things, I eased my mind about why that person did what they did, and I eased my mind about the hurt of the little girl inside my heart.  I did get a bit heated once or twice, while I was going through this issue.  I did let the person know how I felt, but I didn’t ask them to take on my hurt.  Instead, I told myself that now I knew it all, I was ready to let it go.  And I did.  The chest pain stopped.  The hurt in my heart stopped and my mind slowed down.  I had come to make my peace with this issue and that meant I was able to say to the people involved, I forgive you.

Now, what if you can’t communicate with the people involved in the situation that has hurt you?  For whatever reason that may be, you can still have that communication, but in a more spiritual way.  This brings me to my work in progress and the dream I had last night.  There is a person who had been a major player in my life some years ago, who has been like a thorn in my side.  I don’t wish to ever see or speak to them again, but I do need to forgive them, in order to create a happier life for myself and for my family.  I had tried many ways to do this, including the act of being baptised in the Holy Spirit and passing on the forgiveness act to Jesus…nice try, but those feelings are mine, not his.  So, I still felt like crap!

I chose to stop picturing that person in my mind.  To stop talking about that person as much as possible, to stop myself when I thought about that person and to visualize the energetic ties to that person being cut.  Now I come to my dream.  I communicated to that person on a Spiritual level last night.  In my dream, I created three big posters with the story of what that person did and an illustration beside it.  I found myself at their house and I showed these posters to them.  I insisted that they take on board what I saw the situation to be and I asked them to take personal responsibility for their actions.  It was partly successful.  I saw the person acknowledge the deeds that had wronged me.  But they wanted to destroy my posters, so I know that still they are not ready to take that next step.  However, progress was made and I woke feeling like I’d kicked a goal toward my own inner peace.  By connecting with them in dream state, I allowed myself to be in control and to be physically safe.  I cannot say I have forgiven this person today.  I can say that I am one step closer and that is what counts.

You can do this too, you can choose to go into a daydream and visualise yourself communicating with the person who has wronged you.  It is not wise to argue or fight with anyone on this level. Be warned, Spiritual energy is very potent, you are only going to make things worse if you do that.  Be peaceful about it.  Ask your questions and accept the current response.  Work on cutting the energetic chords that bind your energies together and consciously stop thinking and talking about the situation.  Change the story to one of triumph and of peaceful outcome in your mind.  This is imperative in the process of achieving the inner peace of forgiveness.

Before I go on, I wish to express that to forgive someone does not mean you have to let that person back in your life nor have left yourself be open to becoming a victim.  The Corrs wrote a song ‘ Forgiven not forgotten‘, to forgive is not to forget, but to remove your emotions from that memory and that person.  The opposite of love is not hate, but indifference.  It is in this state of non-emotion that you will find peace.  Always consider the lessons you have learnt about the situation and person you have dealt with, so you never have to got through that again.  Above all, believe in yourself, so you don’t fall into the same traps or issues.

So, we come to my final scenario.  The one I wish to see.  It goes beyond you and me, to the greater World of Humans.  When we have learnt to forgive and move on from those who have wronged us personally, we must turn to moving on from those who are wronging others on a grand scale, like dictators and terrorists.  Many of the people who love to war need to have the publicity that goes along with it.  There is a deep sadness in my heart for all the innocent victims of this attitude.

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However, if we all choose to turn our backs and not watch the terrorist stories on television, not listen to it on the radio.  If we choose to allow the process of the authorities quietly and swiftly dealing with the issue, without learning who and why that drama was created…we leave no platform for those who choose to commit evil acts to further their cause.  Evil acts only cheapen their cause.  You do not give attention to a tantruming child, lest you risk feeding the tantrum, so don’t give energy and focus to the evil acts either.  Yes focus on the people involved who need love and support.  Yes, be there for them, but walk away from the focus on those who wish to capture your attention.  This way, we can all begin to heal and forgive.  We as a Human Nation can evolve.  I know this is idealistic, but ideals are worth considering and they are what a lot of people live and die for.   World peace is and always will be an act of forgiveness on a grand scale.  We’ve got to start somewhere.

So Forgiveness in an act that brings inner peace.  It is a decision and it is a process.  Who do you need to forgive in order for you to have a happier life?  Who are you ready to forgive and who are you needing more time to deal with in your mind and heart, before you will be ready?  It’s ok to be at different stages in forgiveness, as long as it’s you goal, you will find it and you will sleep more peacefully from then on.